More deep thoughts

18 May

I don’t think I ever loved him.  I think I felt loyalty to him…and that’s far different than love.  And being loyal is not the foundation for a marriage.  Now loyalty, like fidelity, is intrinsic to the success of a marriage but it cannot be the foundation upon which a marriage is built. 

And that’s why the whole thing with Laura and his ‘inappropriate relationship’ hurt so bad – because I had pledged loyalty and the first time that I wasn’t available all the time, I was replaced.  Had I been a stronger or more courageous person, I would have asked for a divorce then. 

But I didn’t.  So now I have to deal with him and the consequences of my actions.


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